i cheated on my husband, then fiance. he is so the love of my life, but unfortunately he entered in to it when i was in a triangle of a mess. i wish not to make excuses, but to simply explain the story. i met him and another guy, "bob" on the exact same day via myspace. however, bob and i actually met face to face where as, my husband and i waited on that. so while bob and i were doing our thing and i was getting more involved with him, "john" and i continued typing simple emails....long story short...bob and i filter out but still linger through the what ifs and "john" and i meet. john is great. so wonderful and just perfect, however my heart was with bob still. so bob and i stop speaking except for an occasional five mins...while john and i start falling HARD. but with all thsi confusion a relationship that was moving so quickly just made me all the more confused. so i took my what ifs with bob and actually went through the fantasy. stupid stupid stupid me...i get that. i knew in my heart but with my past of sexual abuse i had no idea how to have real lvoe in my face....so when it was finally there i screwed it up. thankfully my husband stuck through with me and we are still together and loving each other...just celebrated our first year in march. things are great but he does have triggers now and then. he admits that i have done my part in regaining trust, but how long does it really take? i love him and im not asking bec i want out, i just want to understand how he really feels....so how did you feel when you found out...and what kept you to stick through the relationship?
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