Hello, I haven't been on the sight for awhile but right at this point I'm having a hard time finding someone who is detatched from this mess. I've felt something funny has been going on with my husband for awhile . You know all the usual signs . Distance ...finding any reason to start a fight ....not comming home when he should. So , last week I started snooping ( as he has called it ) . You see he has been spending too much time on MY computer . It took me a few days and even though he tried to hide everything , it was all there in black and white . I found a unknown to me ( a new personal email address for him ) and also a sight ( friendship sight ) he has been talking on . He has found him a internet playmate ( and playmate she's not ) . I have all their personal emails to each other . All the love notes , all the sex talk. I confronted him and the first thing he said was, " what about the trust " ? Not the trust that he was doing this , but the trust that I found out ! He keeps telling me that it's all just a game , a fantasy ( trust me she NO mans fantasy ). Nothing is real ! He stated to me that it's not infidelity since they've yet to have contact . All I know is that right now I'm mad as hell. He keeps telling me that all this is my fault ! How can it be my fault ? And to make matters worse I've seen photographs of her . She looks old enough to be my great grandmother . If he would meet her on the street , he wouldn't even look at her . It makes me SICK ! I mean I know I haven't been myself . I've had a recent surgery to try to stop some of the endo... . In april my best friend died , then on June the 12th , I lost most of my things in a fire . I just don't understand ? Does any one out there consider this adultry like I do or is it all in my mind ? I'm I going way over board on this. I mean all I can do is think about the emails . Things he has said to her . Wondering if he's still in contact with her , even phoning her ! All I've done is cry for three days . I can't eat , sleep and my head is killing me . I'm just not sure where to place all this mess ! Is what he is doing wrong ?
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