Last night my husband thought it would be nice to take me to Venetian Night. He said he wanted to take me out more as a untold sense of appreciation (this is what i gathered from the jesture). We were out for about 1 1/2 hours before his true side came out. It started with walking the board walk. He just walked ahead of me and it never seemed to dawn on him that i was not by his side. I took that to mean he wanted to get through the crowd but, as i looked at other couples i felt a sense is displacement and it all started to come back to me, he has never been a romantic guy, he has never wanted to be close nor show love in public (nor private). I have dealt with this for 15 years (crazy huh) and im ok. But then, i went to get food with him he ordered then i ordered he said he needed to go get a dink i said ok, minutes past i got my food and went looking for him i stood there watching him in the line and he finally headed my way. He didn't see me standing there but i saw him a woman walked by him he turned to look once and then twice at her this made me uncomfortable. I thought we were past this so i walked up to him and he said where were you i said watching you and he looked guilty all of a sudden. I then said can you just give me a little respect he got angry and then wanted to leave. I kept my composure and headed with him to the car without a word. I walked by a stain glass exhibit and i asked if i could look, he said whatever. I found peace in the Tiffany Glass designs that displayed nature and biblical images this filled my heart and allowed me to know that respect is a virtue and to demand it is to only love yourself. Am i wrong to feel this way? How would you have felt?
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