When i learned about about my husband's affair, I tried to deal with it alone, internally. That lonliness was all consuming so I learned to lean on my closest friends and siblings for support. Without them, I absolutely would have taken a turn for the worst. What I learned in the process, though, is that there have been so many of our couple friends and family that have suffered the same tragedy as we have. Couples that I thought were untouchable. Some worked it out, others went separate ways.
And then I found this group which has helped me tremendously as well. I know I am not alone in my sorrow.
I have to question, though... Why is there so much infidelity in this world? Is it that hard to have integrity, faithfulness and honor in a marriage or relationship? I took my vows so seriously in front of God and family. To hear of so many people dismissing those vows is disheartening.
Although we are working on repairing our relationship, I don't wear my wedding ring any more. It doesn't hold the same significance and in fact reminds me of the broken promise. He says I should continue to wear it because we're fighting to save the marriage. Should i?
I am a retired pschotherapst and a recovering PTSD surivor. As I experience the aging experience I am also experiencing PTSD issues. I believe the aging process triggers PTSD symptoms . Vulnerbility is the culpret. We are somewhat physically impaired and become more dependent on other to meet our challanges that come with the aging process.
I should have started winding down hours ago. I couldn't . I can feel myself trying to out pace the night. Like something is chasing me and I don't exactly know what yet but I'm moving as fast as I can to stay ahead of it. Kind of how i'm trying to get through life right now. I'm taking the meds to attempt to get sleeping at will back. I'm seeing the therapist to process the things that haunt...