It has been 1 1/2 years since I found out about my husbands two affairs. We have both been in \"recovery\" of some sort the entire time, but I can\'t seem to shake this junk! Usually I am the type to either move on or deal with it head on, then move on. I can\'t seem to do that this time. I of course have attacked this head on and have been really working through a lot of great stuff, but I can\'t seem to get past how selfish a person could be to decieve, betray, and lie not only to me but to my two children too. He seems to be very sincere in working things out and seems to have his \"addiction\" under control, but at the same time how can I even trust that? I am wanting to believe him, but still feel like the wool could be pulled over my eyes once again very easily. Considering he did it for 12 years and I would consider myself to be a pretty aware and perseptive person. I suspected and accused, but never got anywhere. When will this crap go away? I have had ALOT of trials and tribulations of various hurtful types, why is this one so hard to move past? And why do I feel as though time is only making things worse?
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