I still have 2 kids in high school. They have begged me not to leave or have their dad leave until they graduate. They don't want their world upset by the stupid things his dad and I do. Don't get me wrong, I am not the one who cheated but I am the one who can't let it go. Of course my husband is a selfish idiot and only cares what beneifits him. Hence the reason why he changed when I filed for divorce because he was going to lose so much to me. Of course he cried and said how much his family meant to him, blah, blah, blah. I gave him the beneifit of the doubt and stayed. Ok, that was all water under the bridge. Now I stay because financially I can't afford a home like I have now, which I helped pay for, and I can't put my kids through anymore grief. I call is selflessness. I am willing to sacrafice my happiness for a few more years. My husband is a truck driver and is only home 2 days a week. That helps me cope. I got a full time job and opened my OWN checking account and am getting my confidence back daily. Of course the husband is always degrading me but hey, he can't dictate to me forever and I follow. Now if I want to spend money on clothes, etc. I can without being questioned. Oh, was he ever mad about me getting my own account! He is losing control and it bugs him. For me, I am coping and I love it! Life goes on and we all chose our own path. This is the one that works for me for now.
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