Hey guys READ MY JOURNAL AND YOU'll be surprised I have come as far as I have. We got married March 7, 2008...and things have been perfect. But these last few weeks I have slipped back into super bitch...I don't give him any room for error, things I have been saying to him has him crying more often lately and I swear when he starts to cry..I get pleasure. He will go into the guest room and sleep and I stay in my bed with a smile on my face and in my heart and go to sleep. Hell I can say I sleep sooooo good. I'm just at the point where I really don't give 2 shits if he stays or goes. Then when he gets dubm enough to ask my why I treat him so poorly and seem to not care...i let it rip. Cause somewhere deep down inside I think He got off way too easy cause I married him later. The other day he noticed that I took off my ring and he asked why do I do that...I replied "Hell as far as I'm concerned were are mot married in my mind" you could see the hurt...and guess what "I DON"T GIVE A SHIT' does it matter how much I cried? Does it matter what he did made our son lose focus in school and he got kept behind? Does it matter how my heart froze as the other woman sat and told me things that he told her about me that nobody else knows..not even my best friend!!!? Does it matter that I had daily offers to meet men, go on dates and such..but I refused because I was happy with whom I was with...but he didn't do the same? I have been dragging his azz thru the smut he bought into my home and HEY I'm just getting started. Am I wrong? I don't think so cause truth be told..if it were me I'd pack my bags and go. He won't he jsut keeps taking the sh-- I dish. And I'm not going to stop so what now. Maybe one day I'll come home and he'll have packed and left. Then I can celebrate with a sexy chocolate man in MY BED without a thought or care for him...hey just as he did to me.....an eye 4 an eye is my motto!!!
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