Is this something that is very common for people to do that have cheated or been cheated on? I have an appt to get tested next week. It's not soon enough IMO. I have put it off too long I guess. Since I found out the OM has been ill lately it really got me to start thinking about STDs and all the what ifs. God, why on earth did I leave my wonderful marriage to romp in the hay with a stranger? I am hating myself big time today. I think this is the worst I've felt in the last 6 months since I've been trying to deal with what I've done. I know I would deserve any STD that I might have but it still hurts me to think about the what ifs. I don't feel I have anything nor do I think it's even possible, but I still want to test just to calm myself and know for sure.
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