Well yesterday would have been my 10th anniversary. Spent the day trying not to think of past years, thinking of what i was missing and last year him promising that things would be better next year maybe go on a cruise, maybe renew our vows...yea right he moved in with her shortly after. So i was having a bad day then i get home from work and he is there with my son. Seems he wanted to pick up a few things from the garage. He already took all the toys, the camping equipment the boating equipment and all the power tools. But there were a few things he needed for his weekend camping trip with his "new family" and he felt he could just "borrow" them. I was irate. How selfish that he abandons us, does not even invite his own son to go and feels entitled to "borrow" anything. Made me realize just how far gone he is. How self absorbed he is that he would not see how this would make me feel. We are just a financial obligation now that he must pay until his son is 18. In the meantime he misses the milestones in his sons life while he plays father to the OW children. How do people do this? I will never understand. I realize now that it is ALL up to me to provide recreation, happiness, security, parenting and support for my son. His father just contributes to keeping a roof over his head and that is the sum of it. My God we deserve better. I am so mad that he goes on and does the things with her family that he used to do with his own. Why does this make me so mad? How could a person change SO MUCH in less than one year. I feel like he is a traitor. He IS a traitor--completely switched teams. Does nothing for his blood family and for his son only when it is convenient for him. I never knew he could be so cold..so selfish...so mean. And she is happy as a pig in shit--that gets me too. Anyone been there? How do you deal with this? I am sad, i am mad, i am discouraged.
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