I'm sitting at work fighting the tears!!! I think about him chuckling to himslef and I would ask what he was thinking aoubt & he would say oh just something that happended today. I'm pretty sure it was her. I think about how he was texting her while laying in bed next to me. I think about him sending her perverted emails and text from work while our pictures & baby's ultrasound pics are right in front of him. I think how he wore his wedding ring, the symbol of my love & fidelity, while he kissed her. I think about how he still doesn't want to admit to the entire A, actually he doesn't even think it was an A. My counselor tells me to take my physical and emotional needs to my H in which for the emotional part, I'm left with defensive responses. I think about him touching her and coming home and rubbing my pregnant belly. He does not understand why I'm still sad. The texting, which is very much cheating, lasted for over a year. I'm sad that he was willing to possible loose his family for a lousey peice of a$$! I want to crawl into a hole!!! We are supossed to be working on our marriage but I don't know how when I feel this awful!!! Somehow everyone thinks I shouldn't feel so bad because the actul physical sex between them only happened once (so they say)& it was drunk. How do you get past this sense of despair??
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