Okay here we go, i was in a voilent marriage for 7years, got through that and remarried after 13 years on my own.Now i am wondering what the hell happened. My marriage is in tatters i feel like a complete failure. About 3 years ago my best friend commited suicide, i fell to bits my new partner was supportive at the start but then i felt alone with my grief, i know i did the wrong thing by spending my monies to sit infront of the pokies so that i wouldnt have to deal with the grief.(THe MOnies were put back in full)I told my partner that i had done this he as extremely upset understandable , this is somthing that i dont normally do. Just after this came out in the open, i found out that my husband had grabbed the ass of a female worker,after finding her address scribbled down on a peice of paper, on confronting him he told me that he had gone to her house to pick up somthing on his evening break from work, she wasnt at work but at her house.But the incident happened at work, the things that gets me is that i overheard her telling another work collegue that my husband and her were using the spare bed on the ward as a trampoline.how true this was i shall never really know my man denied it. My partner and i have always been open about the consental act of bringing someone else in the marriage if we both knew about it and agreed, sexually that is.But we have never brought another woman only a man into our bedroom he told me that he took me on an adventure with another man which was his choice to do his instergation bedroom, his reasoning is beacuse i came from a fucked up marriage and that i was damaged goods and that he was showing me somethign special, also because my partner is bi sexual and so am i, this sexuality has never been a problem . I have said to him that i will choose a woman that suits us both, and he agreed at the time. we went away for the weekend and i asked him whome would it be that he would like to bring in to play, when he told me the woman at work(whome he grabbed on the ass, mind you i never knew about his indiscretions before this) i was stunned.I actually felt sick.It was then i realized somthing more was happening between them as my gut instinct was going off, so i told him that might be a good idear just to see what he had to say and then casually he said to me on our romantic night away oh by the way i should tell you i grabb her on the ass, he told me this as he thought i was all for a threesome with her but in reality i was shattered i know this doesnt make sense to those that are reading this but i do love this man and i have done alot to make this work.but even though i felt i have moved on from this incident another has come up, the other night we went to a party this woman wanted to play with him i said no as she isnt my flavour he just cracked it, now i feel as though if this is not done he, him being with anothr woman, he will leave . He has told me that i am selfish,and that he feels that now i am a lier and a game player, . i am not i just dont want anyone to play with us is it wrong to be selective about your choice of people. Let me state this i am not a swinger or not into the scene just like to add a bit of consentual spice.But now i am knowing that in the begining it wasnt for me at all but for him. He is so angry at the present he feels ripped off at not being able to play with the woman but i feel that his desire to have another woman doesnt matter whome it it, out weights his love for me now.........I really dont know what the hell to do i know what i own in this i wish to hell now that i never went that way in the first place with him(his request) because now i really feel that if he doesnt get what he wants in this marriage he will leave, cheat or turn nasty. Help me i am lost, i cry most of the time now i look at him and all i see in his eyes is so much anger, and disappointment. I couldnt take it if this marriage ends up like my first.
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