Just when I think I have got this whole thing under control, I find myself right back where I started. I know that this has to be confusing for my husband, when I have a good day he really seems to think "oh she's over it!" I don't know whether to cry everday to prove that this still hurts like hell or what. I am trying so hard to get past this, but the betrayal and the "other child" makes this so hard to get past. may sound funny but I wish he had just had an affair, he had to go out and make a baby. He keeps saying, we can get thru this and put it past us, but this child is here to stay, so we can never put it behind us. I often think of leaving, but because we have a child together, I will still have to be involved with him. I am so hurt and I just don't know what to do. Please, please help. I am losing my grip.
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