My situation is the following...I was cheated on about two years ago. I have no idea if it was an isolated incident, or if it went on for the duration of the two years...but I just found out about it a few months ago. I also found out about so many lies that took place during our relationship. When I first found out about the cheating and the lying, I immediately broke up with him, although I was completely devistated. I kind of suspected the cheating, simply because he had gotten so jealous and controlling over those two years, that I couldn't stand it anymore. (we were together for a total of 5 years). Either way..he wanted to mend things with me, and tried in so many ways to prove he was worthy of my trust again. Although he was doing this, I was still hearing terrible things about what he was doing behind my back. He, of course, denies all those things, and says that people are only telling me those things cause they don't want me to get back together with him. Either way..I was very strong in my "once a cheater, always a cheater" mindset, and I told him that he didn't learn anything but how to be more sneaky the next time. I told him that I didn't believe he was sorry for what he did, he was only sorry he got caught. I refused to get back together with him, and he has since gotten a new girlfriend. Now that he has a new girlfriend, I really want to be back with him. I think its the whole, "you always want what you can't have" thing, but I dont know. My mind keeps making me feel like I made a mistake to break up with him. I'm tormented by the fact that he and his new girlfriend follow me to multiple places to "show off" their relationship...kissing in front of me, talking about having sex, etc. I get so upset by this, and even have horrible nightmares about it..but I still feel like I need him back in my life. It hurts so bad, I feel like I can't even go on, somedays. I feel like I have nothing to live for. He has called me multiple times since they got together and leaves me horrible messages saying things like..."I'm never talking to you again, because I'm going to talk to any other girls...I'm going to be the perfect boyfriend for her, and I'm not going to ruin things with her like I did with you". He says that he's so in love with her..and that he would never cheat again...Although he claimed he was so in love with me after he cheated and it was all just a big "drunken mistake". Am I stupid to want him back? Should I pursue things with him if he and her break up? How do I move on when they are constantly throwing their relationship in my face? Thanks so much for your help, I would love to hear any feedback at all!! Thanks!
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