Background- So my H and I lived separately 2 months, I had with trust for him. (Relocated...) One day he told me that he checked his old email (the one he used for the OW) and some X had emailed him and he had emailed a different X and that is was no big deal oh, and that he had set up a myspace acct (also his big thing with the OW). I told him close down his accounts that it is too much of a worry for him to be having secrets online since that is what happened before. So he closed the myspace but the email you have to not use it for 6 months or whatever... so no more check that email. We have a family account and I don't see why all his emails can't go through there! Anyways he told me his boss sent some pictures of him at his new job and he was going to show our son. He checked his email for the pictures. Whatever, I didn't look at them we were about to leave. So today I thought well hey I'd like to see the pictures. So I go into his email, my email,our family email... not there anywhere. Hmmm, I check the history on the computer HOTMAIL!?!?!?! WTF is hotmail doing in the history. So his password is different and he isn't answering his phone to give me the password. I'M FREAKING OUT. So many old emotions are coming up and I'm about to go to church and AHHHH I can hardly breathe. I don't think he is having an affair but who knows why he would give his boss his old email when he knows i don't want him to use it. I'm not being controlling it's a step we decided on for building trust. What is going on??????