I fucked up my first marriage by Cheating. I am re-married to a wonderful woman, Who loves me DEARLY. I keep telling myself that I will not cheat on her. So far so good. But I still have thoughts. I have to Remind myself, almost daily, how much i love her, and That I dont want to lose her. I enjoy being married to her. But I "see" all the oppurtunities i would have to...to..i want to say, pull it over her eyes. To trick her. To be dis-honest. There-in lies the problem. I am brutally honest, to a fault. My Ex-wife and I are still friends, (she lives 2.5 hours away)and even though I cheated on her, she up and left me a year later without so much as mentioning there was a problem. I see it as she walked out on me. The last month we were together she was sleeping with some guy at her work. Back to my question. I dont want to cheat. But i see all the little...."loopholes" i "could" sneak through. Isn't that just awful? what do yall think? Tar and feather me, leaving me hanging in the town square? Public humiliation? I am humiliated enough privately...shit.
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