Here's my story.. 3 months ago, I caught my H in an emotional A (or so he says). Of course, he says it's over, there's no more contact, etc.... Do I believe? They work together. Next, I'm nuts..everything he says and does, I question. There's no just hearing what he has to say and/or does (or doesn't do) that doesn't have a hidden agenda. I'm pissing him off left and right; then I get scared that his going back (if he truly has left). Does this drive you nuts if you have stopped? If you haven't stopped, does it piss you off too, that you are questioned and we still keep bringing it up? You see, we (the victims, if I can say that)can't help ourselves. Most of us (at least me) are of not sound mind and body. You get pissed and walk away; don't you know that we just HURT!! and can't help it? The funny thing is.. most of us, or so it seems, want our marriages to work. We really do love you cheaters and want to forgive and move on. The problem is, we can't trust; and you can't accept that (even though you are the ones that violated that trust). Is it sooo hard to be compassionate, work for the realtionship (meaning a little extra romance/attention)? After all, you made this situation be. I know, I don't want space. I want to be smothered by love; because that's what I lost. Is it too hard to understand that? Help me to know what's going on in your mind. Do I just kiss my H's ass and act like all is good in my life? Do I just act like, o well, bummer... he had an A... woe is me?
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