One thing i cannot get out of my head today is thinking of him doing all the nice little things he used to do for our family for hers. The camping trips, the trips to the beach, the boating. Visiting relatives in N.C. now he is already doing some of these things with her and her children. How can someone do that? Just replace the participants. After 13 years-everywhere i go i see us doing something. I could never bring another man to do the same exact things we did together. It's torture for me right now. It took me the longest time to even go grocery shopping without crying because i would just picture him being silly in the store and buying his favorite stuff. i am really letting this get to me today. it's been months since he left, though i couldn't let go. How do we forget? What do you do with memories that just keep popping into your head and your heart?
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