My sister sent me a text message yesterday stating that she felt she was losing me. Begging me not to left this change who I am, someone she has looked up to and wishes she was, funny, smart, beautiful. She wrote that she see's me slipping away, blaming myself for what has happened. In away it is true, and I know most of you know what I mean. So much focus is put on the why, how, did I do something wrong, what's wrong with me? I find myself cancelling plans with friends and staying home, not feeling like being with others. Sorry this is so long, what I would like to know is do you feel you have changed as a person? For better or worse? In some ways I am stronger than I thought, but I have changed. I am no longer carefree and happy.
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