Well, here I am again. Wow, this is tough, but I'm feeling stronger every day. The thing with OW has pretty much run its course I think. As I've read often happens, she was pressuring him, etc. The initial infatuation is through and he's left with the person she really is. How I wish the last few months hadn't happened. H still wants to leave and be alone for a while. This isn't uncommon for people who have lost a child. A kind of escapism to get their head together. I always knew that's all this relationship was...an escape from his terrible reality. I may get some disagreement here, but I will be here for him. Always. Don't get me wrong...I called him out on any lies...I told him I deserved better. He can't leave until we rent out our rental house to have the extra income. I told him until then I would not tolerate him talking to her. It's this....you move out now and borrow money to be able to do it, or you wait until the house is rented and you have mony to get an apartment. I deserve better (I found out he still had "their" phone and was still talking to her). He finally admitted to his lies and that he had tried to just be friends with her, but she had shown she couldn't do that. So now here we are. I would actually be ok with him moving out for a while to have his solitude if I didn't think that would involve other women. Her or not. He wants to maintain the best parts of our relationship and stay friens and stay connected, but that's so hard for me when I want to be his wife and partner, not just his friend. We'll see how it all turns out, but I am feeling very strong and very good about myself. It's scary because our social circle kind of revolves around him and his band. I suspect I'm going to be rather lonely for a while.
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