I am going to try posting here, and not get blasted for being a cheater. My husband has been online for about 8 years, chatting with men and women that I do not know. He finally got a chance to meet a European friend in an adjacent state. He misled me to think the friend was male. I am convinced that he must have a close relations to her to drive 6 hrs each way. He claims they did not have sex. I am suspecting they chatted when she was underage, and she is interested in seducing married men. Perhaps they had only oral sex, so my hubby can feel like it was not infidelity. When I snooped at his e-mail, he seemed too happy about their visit. To make matters worse, I have been exploring all kinds of dirty websites online, and chatting with men. I have online friends that have huge crushes on me, and I like to confide in them, but never really have cybersex relations with any. I did have random sex chats, but anonymously. I felt like I cheated when I continued to fantasize about one man for about a year. He cared deeply for me, and thought about me all day and night. I enjoyed the love and attention I felt. He was the reason I did not question why my husband needed to visit his online friend. It is very special when you have a connection of souls online. Chatting online is a very powerful aphrodiasiac. I fell for many men online, and promptly felt guilty, and had to snap out of it, and just block them. Which is worse, keep it online, or meet in person? Neither my husband nor I had real sex with another person. I sought the emotional connections, and got addicted. I still don't know what my husband is seeking online, maybe just online porn.
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