If you would read my profile you will know what has happen in my life. I had been with this women almost eighteen years. Never had any deases of any kind. She never had any deaese of any kind. Then about two weeks after July 10, 2007, I have to go to the hospital for severe pain in my penis area, hemmoroys, upper urinary infection, and a hosy of other small things I can even think of the name of. One infection I had that the doctor saud was contaguios and has to be reported to the health clinic was URIATITIES (please forgive me as I can't spell medicals tearms correctly, and have not had sleep for three and half days. I read somethings on HIV/AIDS and understand that it can take up to ten years to rear it's ugly head. Since then I,ve been very scared. I don,t want to die from something might have brought into our marry because she wanted some sex on the side. I find it so unblieveable that a person,s caracter can wait until they have three kids(one ready to go to college) before it really manifest itself. I have been pursuaded by some many women over the years for my looks, my personailty d genearally just the way I carry myself around others but, being only tempted I have never placed any women above my wife(an I have even have models apporch me. My wife however is a little below averge in looks (and after this way below averge in intelligence) I need to ask the question, "If I were to get tested now, can the medical people tell if I have it? Or am I just doomed to wait until years from now when my health is failing to know for sure? I still continue to sleep with her but, no more sex or deep kissing. Please, forgive my spelling as I have not been myself lately. She still continues to lie and decieve about when I finally cought her. No guilt, no remorse, no shame, just nothing. Like what she done after being so long in this loving relationship was alright. PRAY FOR ME. Pray that I can keep my sanity.
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