I dont know what to do, i'm such a retard for staying with him. I thought we were getting better and now last night on a way back to North bay after spending a few hours painting our new place, i was about to write a note into his booklet, well i saw another note saying "hey ya sexy, muah" And i ask him what the hell was that and he said must of been Tina or matthew writing in his book. Well i was worried about it so the next morning i ask Tina if she or her bf wrote in Jons book and I showed her the writing. She said it as not her or him, and its not my writing or Jons. So i think it was another girl who wrote that to Jon, so i am totally freaking out and he is at work and i cant get ahold of him. So now i have to wait till he gets home at 5:30pm and its only 10:30am here. I cant stop the terrible feeing in my tummy. I dont know what to think, if it was not Tina or her bf or me or Jon, then is must be another girl, but he only works and comes home so how does he have the time??? But its in his book, and his book as far as i know has only been in the house or car. So did he have someone in the car with him?? or what??. I saw the book the other day and there was no note so it must be new. So what a i suppose to do? Move into the place just me and Timothy, if i did i would be in sturgeon falls , with just Timothy and i would have to work full-time once maternal leave stops and so i would have to make atleast 1000.00 a month with baby bonus of $420.00 a month so i could afford my place. My place would be $875.00, hydro-$75.00, cable-$153.00 and then Visa card-$50.00, the brike-$50.00. Then food $150.00, and then baby stuff$ 150.00 a month for formula and diapers. that will be around $1500.00. So i would just make it, and then be broke. Hmm but i got to do it, if its a girl, i need to build a good plave for Timothty, with or without him. It was my credit that got the place. PLease pray this all works out if this is the road i have to take. Tina says she will come to sturgeon falls to babysit. I am so scared to do this, i dont know what to do.. I dont want to cry, i dont want to be upset......:(
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