Everyday I wake up and I look in the mirror and I see this young 22 year old sucessful military woman who is glowing from her second pregnancy and wonder who is she and why isn't she smiling. I loved him so much....I would have done anything for him....I didn't want to get pregnant again so soon after my first daughter was born, I wanted to travel, maybe go overseas and do my job for a while but he wanted another baby and so I got pregnant and I was very happy actually, and felt like he loved me more then ever....our lives were great i thought.....but he left his family for a girl who he has once said was crazy and tried to physically hurt him in the past....he walked out saying that he wasn't happy anymore and he couldn't live like that anymore....but I had to stay back, alone, trying to mourn the loss of him, keep myself healthy for the baby growing inside of me, and take care of my 18 month old. His family was so disappointed in him and his own mother and grandmother wont have anyhting to do with him...he lost his job, no one will take him in and I even, sadly and disgustingly enough, asked him to come home and let us work it out because we were a family and I loved him no matter what. He is a stubborn man and says no that he will be fine and he doesn't want to look back....I just dont want to hurt anymore, I don't think I miss him so much anymore but I do miss thinking Im worth something....Like I said, I wish I didn't wake up and go to bed thinking about our 5 years together and how she (the ow) and him aren't caring at all.....