My husband and I have been married for 11 years. We have three children (ages 10,9,and 4). We decided to seperate for awhile-we were having trouble working on our problems living in the same house. So the kids and I moved into an apartment accrosse the street from him. We were doing quite well.dating eachother as if we had just met. We had decided to do couples counseling and both (or so I thought) felt very good about the way things were going. We had NO INTENTIONS of divorce-only to live seperately for awhile. He went on fishing trip over Memorial Day weekend and our lives fell apart. He went to a bar one night (we are both recovering alcholics)and he "fell off the wagon". He also proceeded to pick up some slut in the bar-go to some stupid party with her-and spend the night with her after having sex with her. He come home two days later and told me everything. I was/am devestated. He is begging me to saty with him and work this out. We have seen a counselor 4 times in the past month (the first time only 4 days after it happened) I know he is sincere in how he feel about me, our kids, our family. I aslo still love him very much....can't imagine a life without the 5 of us together. But I AM SO ANGRY I can't even think straight. I go back and forth on a daily basis about what to do. One minute I am happy and feel positive about our future-the next I am in hell and reaDY TO SIGN DIVORCE PAPERS. mY CHILDREN DO NOT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED (OBVIOUSLY THEY ARE TOO YOUNG) BUT THEy KNOW THAT MOMMY IS MISERABLE AND CRIES ALL THE TIME. I am so tortured by his one night stand-it is haunting me evey moment of every day. It has only been a month-so I keep telling myself to hang in there,it will get easier. But will it? Please send me your thoughts. I feel so alone and crazy and miserable. Thanks. MicheleW.
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