Well just a few minutes ago, H had one of the OW call my home and talk crap to me. He and I had a tiff earlier today and I told him to leave and calm down. I was really thinking about making our relationship work. But yet again he decides not to come home and then has this bit** call me at home. I wanted to destroy my house but knowing that my kids are asleep in their room made me think smart. Then he gets on the phone and is mouthing off to me. What did I do to deserve a jerk like him? What steps should I take now? I am a smart attractive woman with goals. Sad thing is I put off going back to college to stay home because he wanted me to. I dont know any other relationships. I dont have friends because of him. I stay home and do nothing because that is what he wants. I dont take care of myself life before. My parents told me this weekend that I look like a corpse. The only thing that hasnt stopped is my relationship with my kids, I continue to be there for them and do activities with them. But I know that I need to do something for myself. But when I've had a H here telling me that I'm fat and ugly, it kinds destroys my self esteem. What do I do? At first I told myself that we were done then I told myself that maybe we could work, now what?
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