Tomorrow will be 5 months since I found out. I can't stop secreting hating him and thinking about the details of what all he has done to destroy my family and mental health. When I look a him or when he hugs me i hate it. Maybe every once in a while I am okay with it, but for the most part I am not. I am on meds and seeing a therapist weekly. Why can't I stop thinking about how much of a selfish pig he is by now. I know it will take years to get over this, but I just feel like the continous contact with her secretly is not something I can deal with. He was completely sober everytime he talked to her and when he had sex with her. When do I stop wasting my time thinking about this. He wants to stay together and he says he will stand by me and wants to help me heal. Do I keep hanging in there with the small hope that I will someday forgive him and not think about it anymore or do I start my new life.
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