Five years ago I caught my husband cheating. I've only told two people about the affair...my therapist who I was seeing for major depressive disorder and my best friend. I didn't feel obligated to keep the affair a secret but I didn't see what good would come of being more open about it Like many of you I'm sure, I went from thinking about the affair almost all the time to only thinking about it a few times a week....wouldn't it be great to have several days go by and not remember or think about it???? Something happened a few days ago that made me realize that I'm a long ways from being "over it." That's when I joined this discussion group. I can't believe that I've come full circle....I don't know what to do. On the extremely rare instances when the affair comes up, my husband looks surprised and says it was five years ago. I suddenly feel (again!!!) like the affair was just yesterday. What happened? What should I do about this? Even my therapist would be surprised to hear me talk about it again. In the meantime, I'm back to fantasizing about walking out, doing something to get revenge, screaming....I can't believe that everything seems so "now" again. Anyone have a similar experience? What would you recommend doing about it? I'm feeling really, really mad again and haven't a clue what to do with these feelings now.
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