i`m sorry in advance if this sounds horrible or if it offends anyone but i need help or advice in this issue! i`m generally not a predjuice person! if you read my info. you`ll know my story on why & how my h had oral from a whore he got out of the paper!!!! my big problem, other than the fact he had oral from someone besides me ,is she was black!!! to defend this statement: i have had black friends & my kids have black friends & i don`t have a problem with that!! but i was raised you only marry & have sex with your own race. my parents never said you couldn`t have black friends or any other race for that matter, but you shouldn`t marry out of your race. i was brought up that you just don`t do it & it was wrong & my h knew this. when he called this whore he knew she was black & yet he still went!!! i`m having a big problem with this & i need help!!!i was nervous to write this because i truelly do NOT want to hurt anyones feelings but i`m having a big problem with this & it makes me ill!!!! even if she was white this would still be horrible but i can`t help it!!!! this is really bothering me because it`s the way i was raised!! again i have no problem with having people of all nationalities be friends!!! we are all people of god & for the most part we are good people!!! but you just don`t have sex or marry other races!!!! please help me with this because, no offense to black women , but i find this hatred i feel for all of them now that i can`t control!!!! i truelly don`t want to feel this way but i do! it`s like my brain is taking control!!!! i can`t even look at black women w/o feeling ill & hating them!!!! i know this sounds horrible but i can`t help it!!! if he even looks or talks to a black woman i want to scream & kill them both!!! please help me so my marriage, that we are fighting for , doesn`t go dowm the tubes!!!! i welcome all advice from anyone. i really don`t want to feel this way & i want to get over this horrible act & forgive but i can`t!!! this is killing me inside!!! i know i can`t blame everyone for one whore, who shouldn`t be doing this in the first place , but i just can`t help it!!! please help me!!!
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