It started back in Aug. 2006. My husband of 4yrs went and started to call this girl that he had worked with. When I confronted him about it he said that he didnt want me to find out because he knew I would get upset, but they are only friends and nothing else. Of course I would because he would call her instead of me and talk to her A LOT longer than he would talk to me (on his breaks). When I found out that he had called her and her call him over 100 times in less than a month I kicked him out. He begged me to let him come back and promised me that he wouldnt talk to her again. A couple months went by and then he started acting funny. We began to have some problems and argued a lot. Well on November 12th of 2006 I kicked him out once again because he decides to up and "go out". Well me and him NEVER go out without each other I mean NEVER. So I pack all his stuff for him and leave it out on the porch. About 1 a.m. I call him so my youngest daughter can talk to him because she was having problems sleeping and wanted her daddy, well he doesnt answer, so I check his messages to see if he ever got my message I had left him before and there had been a message from her on there from Nov. 5th. I get upset of course and go to her house to look for her and there sits his car. But they are just friends? Well I go up to the house and knock on the door and find out that my best friends boyfriend is in there also so I tell him she is looking for him and then my husband tries demand that I leave. No I shouldnt have went to her house, but I wanted to let them know I knew what was up now. Later on I went and got my car. The next morning he comes home to get the car so he can go to work and he tells me he slept with her so I lose it. I went to the hospital and they admitted me. Well that following Saturday I was ready to move on, I was going out to dinner with some friends. He came home to stay with the girls and finds out that I am going out and RUINS the night for me. He starts to GO OFF!!!! Well I stay home and so does he. We talk some and went to bed, him on the couch. That following Monday he text her telling her that he missed her. Which really hurt me because he was actually home again. My marriage was falling apart at the time and I thought I was able to take the cheating but i guess I wasnt. What I guess I am wanting to know is how do I deal with this? I constantly think about it. I always ask questions but all I get out of him is "I dont know" I never get a straight forward answer. I pray about it, we have went through counseling, and so much that I have adapted to this feeling I have. I am now cold hearted and very untrustworthy of anyone. I hate feeling like this. Any advice?
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