
Infidelity Support Group
Any relationship in which one partner engages willfully in sexual relations with another outside of the partnership is considered to have experienced infidelity. This breach of trust is often traumatizing for the faithful partner as well as the relationship, and support is often needed to heal emotionally and to decide whether or not the relationship should continue after...

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So, here I am. With exactly what I wanted. My husband is back, in every way. He is involved, devoted, and physically and mentally HERE everyday.
But, everything he says, and everything he does, I question. I question his motives, why he does or says anything, and I am always waiting for him to announce that he is leaving again.
I want it to be the way it was before the affair and the lies. I want to just know that he will come home every night. But, I'm starting to believe it will never be the same ever again. I'm okay with it not being the same, because things are supposed to change. But, how do you have a solid marriage when one of the spouses is always questioning the other?
But, everything he says, and everything he does, I question. I question his motives, why he does or says anything, and I am always waiting for him to announce that he is leaving again.
I want it to be the way it was before the affair and the lies. I want to just know that he will come home every night. But, I'm starting to believe it will never be the same ever again. I'm okay with it not being the same, because things are supposed to change. But, how do you have a solid marriage when one of the spouses is always questioning the other?
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I am beginning to trust him ....a little...but I will still check on him. I just hope and pray that I will not be disappointed.
Things will never be the same...hopefully they will be better.That is what I am working towards.
Take a step back and look at things from a distance. Try to be open minded. It helps me to post in the journal on this site.Maybe it would help you as well.
As hard as it is.....I am trying to move forward...I don't want to know the details because the images and thoughts that I have in my head now are enough ....I couldn't handle anymore. H wants to let his go and move on...he knows he hurt me...devasted me is more accurate. He sees it every day because I am not sleeping at night.
We are doing things together now and showing each other in their own way that we care.
Good luck!!!!!
I just posted this on another thread, but it is true. Eveytime my H has had contact with the OW, our relationship has changed.
Things will never be the way they were before. We can still have a marriage, and I will always be in love,but on my guard. I wasn't like that before the A.
But, commuication is now better. For the first time in our marriage, she is starting to tell me what is going on instead of saying something cryptic and wanting me to read her mind. I am now wise to the lies and the tactics. I have installed spyware and feel comfortable that there is nothing going on. If I randomly check her phone or the computer and find nothing, then there is a deposit made into the trust bank.
But, loving someone is a very scary thing. Allowing someone into our lives opens us up for the possibility of hurt. Once that trust has been violated, it puts us in a very, very sensitive position. We don't want to be hurt, it is natural to protect ourselves. So...all that being said...this is really not about your husband anymore. He will do what he wants to do and you really have no control over that. What we have to do is concentrate on our own healing. Our spouses, hopefully, will continue to try to build up trust and fix what they broke. It is their main responsibility. They crushed us. They need to try to fix what they broke and build us back up again. We can also try to make any improvements that we want to make. But, we don't need the pressure of trying to change everything while also healing. We need to take time to heal. That time is different for everyone. It breaks my heart when I hear about spouses that say we just need to get over this and go on. No, it doesn't work that way. You can't say to an open wound..."Hurry up and heal." Not only does that not work, it is likely to cause some sort of infection because we're breathing and spitting germs into the open wound. We can't hurry the process. It takes time. It may take therapy. But, we can survive it if we take care of it. So, take care of yourself. Healing will come with time...but there is always going to be a scar.