I am reading books and doing all I can to heal me for me and for my marriage but he does not want to put to much effort into it. He thinks enough time has passed that we should be over it and be "normal" again but I still get those sinking feelings like he is hiding something even though I really want to believe him when he says he would never do that again because it just hurt him too bad. He rarely brings up what it did to me or our older son but that is kind of how he is ME ME ME. Anyway maybe I should be further over it than I am but he says by reading all these books I am just over analyzing everything and it is making him misserable but I feel like the books are helping me. I love him so much and have even read books on how to be better to him the way he needs it (The caring and feeding of a husband- great book) and have been doign what it says but he still sees me as a nagging wife who doesn't appreciate what he is doing (which is there but not a lot). I wish he could see I need somethings that are different than what he is giving and would just put a little effort into going the mile to do them for me. I guess maybe I just have to be me and if he likes it great and if he doesn't tough shit (these are his words not mine)
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