TODAY I WAS ABLE TO CRY A LITTLE... I WANTED TO, BUT I COULDNT.... BECAUSE I FELT SOMETHING ON MY CHEST.... AND I MAKE AN EFORT TO CRY... THEN I FELT MUCH BETTER...HE SEND ME SOME IM SORRY E-MAILS AND THAT MADE ME FEEL BETTER TOO... HE SAID HE DID WENT OUT WITH ANOTHER GIRL, BUT HE DIDNT GET LAID... HOWEVER, WHY WOULD HE GO OUT WITH SOMEONE ELSE ANYWAY... WHAT FOR? EVENTUALLY HE WAS GOING TO GET LAY OR GET EMOTIONALY INVOLVE WITH HER.. BECAUSE HE WAS SEEING HER AND SOMETHING ABOUT HER WAS INTERESTING FOR HIM.... I DONT KNOW IF IM A STUPID OR NAIVE FOR BELIEVING IN HIM... BUT IT MAKES ME FEEL BETTER...HE SOUND HONEST...AND SORRY... HOWEVER HE TOLD ME HE WASNT RIGHT FOR ME, HE WAS HURTING ME, WE DIDNT WANTED THE SAME THINGS, I WANTED COMMITMENT AND HE DIDNT.... IT SHOWS... HOWEVER I DONT WANT TO BE WITH HIM... I JUST WANTED TO FEEL AND BELIEVE THAT SOMETHING OF WHAT HE TOLD ME WAS TRUTH... BECAUSE I WAS VERY SURPRISED AND DISSAPOINTED... SO MUCH... NOW I FEEL BETTER BUT I MISS HIM!! I MISS BEING WITH HIM, BECAUSE I WAS SO HAPPY WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER, WE GET ALONG SO WELL.....WE WERE TOGETHER EVERYMONDAY NIGHT... I MISS THINGS WE DID, I MISS HIS MORNING MAILS, DURING THE DAY HE USED TO SEND ME SHORT MESSAGES... I FEEL LONELY.. I FEEL EMPTY.... BUT MORE CALM.. I HAVE SOME TRANQUILITY....SOME PEACE.....
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