I should be happy. Well, kinda. After all the drama and crap with this (and please don't debate this part) girl she has made her abortion apt. He had been telling me that after she gets it if she calls and stuff he is going to talk to her because she had no one. Like an idiot I orignally said ok. Last night someone asked me why I said OK. And I didn't know. Then she said, you are saying OK because you don't wanna lose him. And she was right. So I put my foot down last night. I told him it is either us (me and our son) or her. All or nothing. If you are done with her then no need for contact no matter what. And he got pissed and said I was heartless. I told him the only heartless person was him for cheating on me. He said he couldnt not talk to her so I said goodbye. He called back a good time later. And said after thinking about it he would do what ever he had to to be with him. At first I was happy then I thought about and told him. I dont want you to do this for me. I want you to do this for you. He got pissed off yet again. An hour or so later he called back and said it was what he wanted. So I told him I wont believe til I see it. He said he will do it as soon as she gets the abortion. So we will see. The problem is I still feel shitty. And I dont know why? :(
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