Was reading something last night, it popped out at me and have been thinking since. It stated there are 3 things each of us needs to be happy in life. SOMETHING TO DO. Worthwhile fulfilling work. I realized my ex hated his job, bored with it felt going nowhere. Where i finally liked mine. SOMEONE TO LOVE My ex has stated he was bored with the marriage and did not know why. i loved my marriage and my life with him. Of course he never spoke of his feelings and i only saw slight changes. SOMETHING TO LOOK FOWARD TO. My ex was bored in job in marriage so in life too. He has always been a negative thinker, wanted the easy way out, has never been really introspective or goal oriented. i looked foward to my life with him being an ongoing journey. We were making plans for trips, for our family etc up until the bomb day. i can see now how in his mind this young co worker fixed all of his problems and made him feel the hero for rescuing her as she had absoultely nothing going on in her life. She had a job but complaining about the place is what brought them together. She had no one to love Man wise. and i don't know what to look forward to. It's almost like this could not have turned out any other way. If he had been an adult and talked to me about it-maybe. But he did not want the flattery and infatuation to stop--nor did she. Now i understand. It does not make it right, never will but i see that it really was not me. HE WAS THE ONE THAT DID NOT HAVE ENOUGH FAITH OR LOVE OR STRENGTH OF CHARACTER. HE WAS THE ONE THAT KNEW WHAT THIS WOULD DO TO US. HE MADE THAT CHOICE....HE DIDN'T CARE. SO AFTER I GET PAST ALL OF THIS AND MOVE ON...HOW DO YOU INSURE THAT YOU ARE GOING TO CHOOSE SOMEONE THAT WOULDN'T DO THIS AGAIN, IF PEOPLE CAN SO EASILY SAY ONE THING AND DO ANOTHER HOW CAN YOU EVER REALLY TRUST AND BELIEVE ANYONE? I DON'T KNOW IF I HAVE IT IN ME ANYWAY.
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