I know it sounds bad, but I deserve to be depressed. I cheated on my husband with one of my professors (I went back to school PT for an MBA). Now I'm a complete mess--and rightly so. I decided about a month ago to try and end the affair in order to work on my marriage, but the moment the words came out of my mouth I regretted it. (Believe it or not, we really loved eachother.) I feel so lost now. I don't know what to do. My husband is trying to be supportive while I'm so depressed, but that's because he doesn't know about the affair. I can't even imagine what he would do if he knew. Of course, I also still have to see my prof all the time and it is so hard because I still love him. He's trying to give me space to decide, but he also thinks that I'll stay with my husband and is pulling away from me emotionally and that really, really hurts. I feel like I've lost absolutely everything.
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