My journal outlines it - basically lots of lies, deception and cheating during my first pregnancy. I moved out for 6 months but was convinced by his words and actions to try to make it work. And I truly believe he's remorseful and wants to make it work. However, now I feel really sad a lot. Sometimes I get this feeling that my whole life is make-believe. I wonder if he ever loved me. I get angry at him for hurting me so much and so deeply. I want to yell at him and tell him how much he hurt me, but that makes things worse. Anyone out there made this work? Any pointers - I'm desperate. I do love him, but I cannot seem to get my head out of the past and enjoy the wonderful things that happen now.
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