Well after all that i have been trying to deal with for the past year, i was warned at work yesterday to keep my personal life out of the office that people are starting to complain that is all they hear from me. And it is true, i have been confiding (i thought) to an office partner that i considered more a freind than a co worker and i guess she is tired of listening to me. I don't blame her, i know they are right and i let my constant obsessing over all the things i am going thru get the better of me. My friends are tired of hearing it, my therapist says i'm stuck and only i can get myself out of this and move on and now people at work are complaining too. I feel like such a jerk, not able to cope, All i can do now is vow to shut myself up and who knows maybe if i stop talking i will stop thinking too. I feel so crappy about it, like i owe everyone an apology. But i guess the best thing i can do is show them a change and be better. This whole thing just sucks.
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