As the uncontrollable crying phase of the grief process is waning, I'm now becoming consummed with the overwhelming fear of being hurt again. It is much stronger than the fear of being alone. I am sad because I know that I can never feel the same way about my husband ever again. I don't know that I'll ever be able to open up and allow myself to love him the way I did before. I don't want to share my life with someone I can't fully love and devote myself to for fear of being hurt again. I would rather spend the rest of my life alone than be hurt like this again. Anyone else feel like this?
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