Hey DS family...I hope everyone is doing good....Hadn't posted in a while but felt the desire to do so today. Well as previuosly discussed with several DS-ers I hadn't dealt with "cousin" since BEFORE Thanksgiving..although I saw him several times after...I had no dealings with him outside of a cordial hello as not to arouse suspicion. Well outta the blue I get an email from cousin stating it's a new year and he would like to make amends. He stated that he needed to talk so I gave him the floor (email wise)..he insisted that we speak in person. Long story short..I agreed and went to his place last Saturday. Long story short..he was doing exactly what I suspected all along..he was starting to cath feelings for me. He had a girlfriend (which I knew all along..hell he had a life before he knew anything about me), but I guess he was trying to keep her and have me. But once the "FEELINGS" started to settle in I GUESS he got scared..I DON"T know...but I do know that he was VERY SINCERE in EVERYTHING he exposed to me that night. As he opened up and told me all that he was feeling I watched him closely..he was spaeking in a tone that let me know he was nervous, he was 3 shades of cranberry....he was vunerable and I could clearly see that it was hard for him to do...he looked me in my eyes and said he was sorry (instead of being honest about his feelings..he would do things to start up an dumb argument..KNOWING FULL WELL...I'M NOT GOING TO ARGUE WITH HIM..THAT I WOULD JUST WALK AWAY AND NOT LOOK BACK..AND THAT"S EXACTLY WHAT I DID)It was easier for him to do that....but I guess he realized he lost something more....NOW WHAT THAT MORE IS...I'm still trying to decipher myself. We made love again that night and this time...it was waaaay different....more heartfelt. I'm feeling something for "COUSIN"...not quite sure what it is....but when I wake..he's there...when I go to sleep he's there....he's on my mind constantly....BET HUBBY DIDN"T REALIZE THAT THE GATE HE OPENED WAS PROBABLY HIS DOOM...........HAD HE NOT BEEN SO CARELESS REPEATEDLY WITH MY TRUST AND MY LOVE.....COUSIN WAS JUST THAT...COUSIN....now he's soooo much more........
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