WELL MY STORY IS CONFUSING AND FULL OF DRAMA, I HAVE BEEN WITH MY PARTNER FOR EIGHT AND A HALF YEARS, WITH A COUPLE SEPARATIONS. HE HAS CHEATED ON ME ATLEAST TWICE THAT I KNOW FOR SURE ONCE AT THE BEGINING OF OUR RELATIONSHIP AND ANOTHER TIME ALITTLE OVER A YEAR AGO, BUT I BELIEVE THERE ARE MORE TIMES. WE HAVE 4 KIDS MINE, HIS AND OUR TWO TOGETHER, 3 OF THE 4 HAVE DISABILITIES. LAST YEAR HE CHEATED WE SEPARATED, MET ONE TIME TO "TALK" AND I GOT PREGNANT, NOW WE ARE BACK TOGETHER AND WE HAVE A 3 MONTH OLD BABY. ANYWAY I THINK HE IS CHEATING. HOW CAN I KNOW FOR SURE WHEN HE HAS NEVER BEEN HONEST BEFORE? HE IS ALWAYS YELLING AT ME, TELLING ME I AM CRAZY FOR THINKING THAT HE WOULD DO THAT, TRYING TO CONTROL ME, JUST FLAT OUT CRUEL TO ME, HE ALWAYS ERASES HIS MESSAGES ON HIS PHONE, HE SAYS HE HAS TO DRINK TO COPE WITH BEING AT HOME AND TODAY I FOUND A USED CONDOM IN A FLOWERBED I JUST WEEDED. I FEEL LIKE HE IS TRYING TO TELL ME SOMETHING INDIRECTLY. I DON'T WANT TO BREAK UP MY FAMILY BECAUSE I AM INSECURE. ANY IDEAS ON WHAT I SHOULD DO NEXT?
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