Ok so my husband says that I should be happy because he is back home with me not doing anything wrong. He says he is too busy to be affectionate when he's working and adds he's supporting me and the kids. He says he can't be affectionate with me because I don't trust him, but I tell him I can gain my trust back if you were more affectionate, aren't we back in square one? I don't feel like a woman next to him and I don't mean that in a sexual matter because we are intimate and it's good but It doesn't feel special anymore. I feel like I am hanging to something that it's not there anymore but he won't admitt it. He doesn't look at me the same way I look at him even after all that he's done. Besides we had this samr problem for a while he'll find some new excuse to be unaffectionate, I used to used a lot of bad words before, change that.I used to complain about him working so much, change that.the list can go on,,,, Maybe deep down I know the truth he's naver gonna change and I am going torealize I don't even know who I am anymore.
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