Okay guys, I need some words of encouragement. I am beginning to feel incredibly overwhelmed. I went to my counselor today, it didn't help much. I am slipping into a depression. I feel like I am falling farther and farther into a hole. I feel so hopeless and in a transition; I can't even make this empty house a home. I wasn't sure if I wanted to work this out with my H, now I am really not sure. I just want to die. I am thousands of miles from my family and friends. I just want a shoulder to cry on, but I don't even have that. I hate him for doing this to me. I feel like my whole world is shattered, and there is nothing I can do to fix it because he won't even be here until Nov. Everyone says I should work and focus in on me, but I look inside of me and all I see is anger, hopelessness, anxiety, sadness, you name it. This sucks. It seems like everyday it gets worse. I hate him right now.
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