Here we go again! For those who know my story, I have not listened to great advice from you or my therapist and I have kept digging for details. My husband has been spoon feeding me them for a month and each time something is revealed its like me finding out all over again. I have told him time and time again the worst thing he could do is continue to lie about information I needed to move on and heal. As some of you may agree, as bad as the details are at least my imagination would not be running wild if I had the straight facts. My dilemma is that yesterday morning the last bit of hope I was holding on to was taken from me. He told me the sex was always "drop my drawers, stick it in and leave" even though I had a hard time believing it, I wanted to. I was hoping they didn't have that naked, skin to skin contact because that is very intimate. WE only had that and that was something sacred to me. WELL again I was correct in thinking he was lying to me and they did have strip down to nothing sex! We have maintained a very exciting sex life through all of this, now I want nothing to do with him after finding this out. We had sex last night and it didn't feel the same. Will I ever get it back or is it over for me. I think it is!
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