Hi All...It's me Paul. I just wanted to give everyone an update even I don't believe. I have been taking everyones positive advice, I have forgiven her, I am starting to trust her....very little, by very little, and things have been going along o.k. So, yesterday she came home from work early so we could spend time together. Before she got home I wrote her a poem (she didn't know about it) and the plan was to go to bed and talk, watch a little Law & Order, then right before we started to fool around I was going to read the poem to her because I memorized it. So last night we go to bed and she is stroking my arm and I am rubbing her neck and we're talking, watching TV. etc. About 5 minutes later I said to myself, "ok, read the poem", so I stopped rubbing her neck and put my hand on top of hers and recited the poem. When I was finished I said "did you like it?" and do you know what she said? "zzzzz"..."zzzzzz"..."zzzz"....SHE WAS SLEEPING!!!!!!! I couldn't believe it!!! I almost got sick to my stomach. So, I gave her the benefit of the doubt and thought that maybe she was playing with me so I just laid there and didn't say anything. After 6 minutes she actually rolled over so her back was to me, she was actually sleeping!!!! I didn't know what to do. I wasn't going to wake her up. So I slowly got out of bed and went to watch TV. About an hour later she comes walking into the den and says, "what happened?" I said "What do you mean what happened? you fell asleep is what happened." So she says, "you should have woke me up." I said to her."what...I wasn't going go wake you up so we could have sex. We had made plans. You knew you didn't have to get up early for work today because you took the day off to spend time with me and you fell asleep." So she starts apologizing then the tears and then she says come on, come to bed. I just looked at her and said Go back to sleep, I will be there in a little while. And I slept on the couch.
Will it ever end???
Will it ever end???
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