Very early in my relationship with my wife, I began flirting with a girl I met online. It very nearly led to a physical meeting, while my wife was on vacation with her family (I had to stay back to work). I was horrified and shamed, but at the time to stupid to stop it. When my wife discovered the chat logs, she was extremely angry. Two years later, and we are still dealing with the fallout. I have come close to slipping once since then, also with someone who I knew primarily online. Again, I almost instantly felt shame, even without "doing" anything. My wife has chosen to stay with me, for which I am extremely greatful, but Iive in constant fear that I am not strong enough or smart enough to keep myself out of trouble. I love my wife. I have cut out facebook (which hurt like hell) and most forms of online chatting, even to the point of cutting ties with very old friends who had trouble understanding I was married now, and couldn't chat like I had back then. I CAN NOT LET THIS HAPPEN AGAIN. Still, I am pretty much alone, as my wife has retreated behind her walls, and while we live together, we are not a cohesive unit anymore. I need help to stay on the straight and narrow, to stay the course.
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