I love my wife dearly.You all are probably sick of hearing me now.If I could turn back the clock to that night I would never have said the things I said to her.But she threw up red flags like crazy.She went out that night with some of her friends and then I started drinking vodka and beer.The more i thought the madder I got.Well she got home about 4 the next morning and I unloaded.I accused her of messing around and called her all kinds of filthy names.Now I live every day regretting every word I said to her.I hurt her pretty bad.That was also the night I found the e-mail she sent to one of the band members her cell number and work number and told him not to tell me he had them.I tried to make things right before she asked me to leave.I told her I still love her but she always tells me that I don't because of the names I called her.She will not forgive me for anything.And then she is going out with a guy tonight to party.This is ripping my heart out and then she asked me if I was going.I told her no because I could'nt stand seeing her with another guy when knowing she is not with me.Why won't she forgive me.Some way some how she has to know I love her.I can't stand this anymore.I want to be with her not apart.i have broke down several times today just thinking about her being out with someone else and not me.What can I say or do to win her back.
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