I have been having an affair with a beutiful, smart, AWESOME woman for almost the entire length of my marriage, which is about three years. I have been with my wife for 12 years. My wife is the all around BEST person I have ever met.She has NEVER done anything wrong to anyone, EVER...she has never had ONE enemy in her life...everyone loves her...including my family. She does not know anything about my affair. I l really DO love both of these women...but my physical and sexual relationship with my wife turned many years ago into a almost living with a good friend type relationship. I really care deeply for my wife, and shee loves me to no end, and I want her to be happy....but something happened between us and I'm not sure how we got to where we are. The woman I've been having this long term affair with is almost perfect, beautiful, smart, sexy, fun, college educated, great job, awesome house, trustworthy, comes from a great family.....and I really do think I'm in love with her. I have a GREAT time whenever we are together and miss her whenever we are not. My wifes life goal is and has always been only one thing, to be a mother. My wife is now pregnant, and I am SCARED to death of ending my affair because I feel that I will spend the rest of my life missing this woman and I love her to death. I need some serious help.
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