hi, im louise, just came across this sight when looking through groups. to cut it short my ex fiance who iv been with for 3 1/2 yrs had an affair with his ex girlfriend over a year ago, it broke my heart. he begged & pleaded to give him a chance, gave me a good enough reason (long story) so i did. slowly tried coming to terms with it, he went out of his way to prove himself. told me he loved me too much to lose me(as they do) he has always been very loving & we were very close, i had no idea he was with her bc he was always the same with me. he got addicted to coke so i asked him to leave, he moved back to his place & promised to get clean then he would come back, we were still together but i wouldnt let him come to my house untill he was completely off coke & well into recovery. he was fine wiyh yhat but just before xmas i found out through a friend he was back with her. i txt him to ask him & he wouldnt reply, i tried ringing him & he wouldnt answer. thats how i knew it was true. im heartbroken that he,s done it again. i know im best off without him bc of his cocaine addiction but it dont hurt any less. i never thought he would do it again. he told me he used cke bc he was struggling to come to terms with what he,d done to me. i believed him. now im thinking what was true & what was lies. i dont know. feels like the whole time we were together was just pure bulls**t. Iv never had this done to me before so the feelings are new & i really dont want to feel like this anymore. i havent heard from him exept the odd silent call, probably when he was using coke. i wish id have walked the 1st time he done it save myself so much pain. i know im the only gf he,s ever cheated on but what does that say for me? we were getting married this year. not my idea. he asked me to marry him so many times. i feel a fool for taking in all his lies. i just want some answers but he wont face me.
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