I just can't get past the anger. I hate my husband so much for what he did to me and our kids. I am still so hurt. I do ok until he calls or I have to see him. I just don't understand how he can have no emotion towards me and act like he has done nothing wrong. He pretends I don't even exist. I am about to have our third child in a couple of weeks and during the whole pregnancy he has not asked me how I am feeling or how the baby is doing. He treats me like I am the bad guy. I just don't see how someone could be so mean to his pregnant wife. Like I'm not hurting enough after he left me to be with the other woman. Why does he feel like he has to hurt me even more. I cant even get through five minutes of the day without thinking about what he has done to me. Everytime I talk to him, I get angry and yell and tell him what a piece of @!%* he is. He still lives with the OW and takes my children around her like its no big deal. I know I need to get over it and be the better person, but when I see him, I want to punch him and tell him how terrible he is. I don't want to be this sad depressed woman anymore. I want him to see what he is missing out on, I 'm sure when I'm mean to him, that just gives him more reason to justify what he is doing. How do I get past it? I know that I am the better person and the better parent. At least I can look myself in the mirror every morning knowing that I would have done anything to keep our family together. He is a quitter and a loser. I know that I am a way better woman than the trash he left us for. I'm just so tired of the hurt and the anger. I am also worried that all of this stress may do harm to my unborn child. I hope this baby is healthy after everything he has put me through. Will I ever get past this hate and anger?
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