I dont talk to a whole lot of people about what is going on with my TTC but I had really been talking a lot to a 19 year old that I work with. She had a son when she was 16 and is still with the father. About 2 months ago she left him for a few days and he begged her to come back. In the mean time I was taking clomid time after time with no results. Then out of the blue at work one day another co worker of ours blurted out "do you have something to tell us?" (to my friend) It all came out. She is pregnant. I faked a smile and left the room. I fought the tears so hard in the bathroom, I thought I was going to be sick. It crushed me. It felt like she did it on purpose like, I can get pregnant and you cant. The thing of it is, we had our periods at the same time and if I would have ended up pregnant we would have been due within days of eachother. She is a sweetheart really but it is so hard to see. I feel bad about thinking this way but I cant help it. Its not fair!
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